Golden Veins

my learning color is orange. my mind can only synthesize instants, and seems lost in longer themes.

i walked out of olin, a bit perturbed by my continuing inability to see what i was supposed to involving neuroscience. it didn't seem right that i could put in 50 hours of studying for two tests, and end up with a barely above F average. i was angry.

i tried deep breathing while i power walked back to my dorm, but the air was frigid and it burned my throat. the sun was slanted right into my eyes, causing a dreaded uncomfortableness when all i wanted was to melt into the neutralness of unconsciousness. a large building cut out the primary source of solar energy and i looked up. people moved along the sidewalks around the quad. they were deep, dark tracts in heavy contrast with the two feet of snow chilling out on top of the frozen, sleeping grass. something about the colors shouted at me, of individual jackets and backbacks, different paces of pedestrians, people heading in opposite directions, passing each other rather effortlessly. it reminded me of a biology class three years prior when my professor wrangled a goldfish and placed it on a microscope slide to examine the vessels spreading out like the rays of Japan's rising sun on its caudal fin. the classroom's screen broadcast the image, and we could see the individual blood vessels, with little beads of blood cells floating together, concurrent with other vessels pushing their cells in other directions. we noted veins and arteries by their different paces.

my eyes, momentarily covered with an orange film, the residue of the golden caudal fin, noted that this action, of being part of a flow, was very pleasant, and that it was something that occurred naturally and was being conducted on a larger scale by all of us, unknowingly, transversing the quad. not only that, but within all of us, such processes were going on. it was such a thought as to instantly stun me, and leave a lasting effect of wonderment.

i pondered why i couldn't be tested on this. the random acquirement and momentary synthesis of knowledge?